Saturday, 21 January 2012
A Promise
I feel enraged and at the same time sad right now. I considered you as my sister and i can't believe that you'll only stab me like this. I can't remember doing you any harm, although i know that i did something terribly wrong- that is to tell you my burden. I can't believe that i trusted you and i thought that you're old and wise enough to give me an advice, but in turn, you humiliated me by shouting to the whole world my trouble and laughed at me. I am very disappointed.
You're mind is the narrowest amongst all i know. You always laugh and it's a good thing, but you can't feel sympathy, that even in one of the darkest days -so far- of my life, you only laughed at me.
I'm a coward for not telling you how i feel right now. Of how i despise you so much now, that when i hear your voice my heart would beat so fast as if it wants to chase you with blades and hurt you as you've done to it.
If you're reading this right now and you know who you are, please avoid me. I never thought of holding so much grudge as this.i am not mad at you, i am enraged by the mere thought of you and i'd like to ruin your life as what you did to mine. I'm lucky i have friends, for if not because of them, i might have fallen somewhere else not in this world.
Do me a favor and never talk to me again- i don't want to sin more than what i have right now.
Don't run to me when no else wants to be with you.
Honestly, this grudge i hold right now, it's just too strong that it could be the sole reason for me to live, to prove you wrong about me. Someday, i'll make you regret what you've done, and even if you do so, you won't be forgiven.
You're mind is the narrowest amongst all i know. You always laugh and it's a good thing, but you can't feel sympathy, that even in one of the darkest days -so far- of my life, you only laughed at me.
I'm a coward for not telling you how i feel right now. Of how i despise you so much now, that when i hear your voice my heart would beat so fast as if it wants to chase you with blades and hurt you as you've done to it.
If you're reading this right now and you know who you are, please avoid me. I never thought of holding so much grudge as this.i am not mad at you, i am enraged by the mere thought of you and i'd like to ruin your life as what you did to mine. I'm lucky i have friends, for if not because of them, i might have fallen somewhere else not in this world.
Do me a favor and never talk to me again- i don't want to sin more than what i have right now.
Don't run to me when no else wants to be with you.
Honestly, this grudge i hold right now, it's just too strong that it could be the sole reason for me to live, to prove you wrong about me. Someday, i'll make you regret what you've done, and even if you do so, you won't be forgiven.
Part I
Recently, i've been feeling strange as if there is a hole inside me. I feel sad and i dont even know why. To divert my attention from the -i think- artificial emotion, i started to go out often and do other things- one of which would be blogging, as prescribed advised by a friend.
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